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Two QQ accounts that have been logged in for a long time are hidden on both sides of the computer screen，Left is the son，Right is mother。

Zhang Yurong moved the mouse，The main window played obediently。In this way，She is sitting at home，Two hours with my son every day。

Computer boot，World Restart，Mother and child can stay in a home -sized homeland.。

Beidaihe in 2010，Become Zhang Yurong's 27 -year -old only child's life terminal。In the collective travel organized by the unit，The son couldn't come back due to an accident。As for the details of the accident，Is there any words in front of Lin Shi，No one wants to tell his mother。& ldquo; Ask his colleagues，All closed，Everyone said I don't know，Tell me brain stem bleeding。& rdquo;

The unit proposes 650,000 compensation，Zhang Yurong has a little more money and did not win。& ldquo; The son does a good job there，I think it's so boring。& rdquo; She said，& ldquo; Otherwise, my son will definitely say me，What are you doing for mom，Change me for money? & rdquo;

Sorrow flows under the keyboard at 7 pm。This is the time of gathering time for Zhang Yurong's lost -independent parents QQ group。Even if you are not at home occasionally，She also wants to explain group friends: suffer，Help my son to collect the dishes。

After the son's accident，Daughter -in -law told her husband's QQ password，Her hard work，Master how to surf the Internet。Go to bed in the morning to light up the son's QQ avatar，It seems to light up the micro -light that the mother lives by the way。

& ldquo; Now the computer is life，No matter what you are，I have to turn on the machine，There are no computers. We are really crazy。& rdquo; Zhang Yurong said。

But in this age group，Lost parents who will go online，After all, it is a very small number。

A friend of a son，Leave a message in his QQ space a while ago，Say buddies, I'm about to get married，Unfortunate，You are not enough。

After I read it，Use my son's account to reply: & ldquo; rest assured，His blessing is allowed。& rdquo; He knows that I am his buddy's mother。

On the day of the wedding，I brought 1,000 yuan，Send it to his friends。Marriage，I don't think I am auspicious，I didn't enter the door，Plug in his hand，I twist my face and leave。We are all crying。

Now just see someone entering my son space，Even if you don’t say anything，I am also particularly happy，I think my son hasn't been forgotten yet，Some people want him。

I wake up at 4 o'clock every morning，When you wake up, go to the computer。I also start to sleep bet365 live casino games on TV at night，I just can't let my mind calm down，As soon as you calm down, it's all your son。My brother said，You come out，Our home。I don’t want to，The atmosphere is not good for others，Very depressed。What did you say to others，Say one，The tears of your own fell down，Brother will cry with me，Very boring，People can't laugh when they laugh。

My son is left on September 4, 2010，4th every month，There are also various large sections，I will go to see him。In the cemetery，Many people come in and laugh.，Only people like us，Go in crying，Crying。

The son's tombstone is 27 years old。There is a 17 -year -old next to，A 22 -year -old。You just look at，Just as the monument of these children，Forever clean。

New Year's Eve last year，January 22，Just the child's birthday。I get more at 3 am，I wrapped more than a dozen dumplings for him，Then go out and buy a bouquet flower。

Only grave sweeping in winter，I only buy flowers，Black in the morning，When no one is paying attention to buy，Like being a thief。You can’t buy flowers when it is hot，4 o'clock in 4 o'clock，People see me，I will want to，Why do this person buy it once a month?。

I take apples at home、Banana、Dim Sum is fully ready，Find another piece of white paper，Write: & ldquo; friend，Today is my son's birthday，Please put on tonight，Clean up again。& rdquo;

This is what those people in the cemetery are watched，I know，Wait for me to go with a forefoot，They have the basis for eating these foods in their backs。

I went early that morning，I only know that there is such a gift，Big Nian 30，Alive people want to go to the grave and ask ancestors to go home。Black in the cemetery，But there are so many people，Cannon is more lively than the New Year outside。I stand in the sound of firecrackers，Foot frozen frozen，I have to step in place，I can't bear to go like this。

I see some soil on the tombstone，Take out the wet hand scarf from the bag，Wipe your child。Just finished，Little Ice immediately comes out of the tombstone，I just cover my palms to cover，Calling Binghua，Then wipe it with a dry towel。It's really cold that day。

Go home，Our mouth is also up。I ask him，Do you know what day today? He said to know。I said why you don't go。He tells me，I have been to last time。It's over。

I have been to last time，But you have been to 10,000 times，What can you do again when your thirty sons go birthday? I ignore him，In the evening, I went to the bathing center with several live sisters in Tianjin。He also wants me to go，He is unwilling to see me tears。

Dad and mother are really different。He always tells me，Say to others，Alive alive，Only when my son goes abroad。That's when the accident is just incident，He sleeps at some point，Sleeping，I am particularly angry，How can he sleep?

bet365 live casino games Like our husband and wife，At this age，That is to live a life。Without a child, there is no bond。In the past, my lover and I had endless words，After the child leaves，We haven't spoken for more than a year，Eat yourself。He took all his salary，It is quite clear，For the past money,，That is also for children。

I computer on this house，He watched TV in that house，I can sometimes laugh when I see him。He has always loved beauty，Change clothes a day，The son is still the same after the son leaves。Actually people have not changed，I admit this，I admit this。But I just think it is abnormal anywhere，My son is gone，Why do you still have your mind to dress up?

My son is gone，What is the taste of this mother's heart? I just say，I must live well，I see my son a day for a day，If I am going to die，Don't talk about others，Don't even go to his own father，So who can go to see my son?

　　Healing injury

Zhang Yurong has done almost ten occupations，Factory workers、Code consumable sales、Yonghe Soy Milk clerk、Supermarket salesman、Apartment waiter、Property administrator & hellip; & hellip; husband and wife only one house，Marry for my son，A new house down payment of 250,000 a few years ago。Since then，They rent in a house of relatives in the room。

After tragedy，Daughter -in -law gave the Zhang family 200,000，Property right to get the wedding house。Lovers do not agree to give up the house，But Zhang Yurong insists on his opinion。She wants to，If my son see his daughter -in -law happy，He will be happy。

Zhang Yurong said: & ldquo; I think my daughter -in -law is my only relative，No matter how you change，You see me on the road，You can never call my aunt，You have to call mom，You just got married，You see me，Can you change your mouth? & rdquo;

Real Estate Corps，Daughter -in -law will call，I haven't been here for a text message。

Last year's daughter -in -law came to see me，I bought her a long skirt、A short skirt，It spent 2,000 yuan and 1,800 yuan。This is for this，Everyone in the family says me。

I don’t know what to think，It seems to keep her，You can keep your child。She loves to eat mutton，I just ask her to eat mutton，How to treat her later。I always want to，You even take a look at me。

From talking to my son to get married，10 years，Daughter -in -law has not brushed a bowl at my house。I always say that now they are all only children，People do not brush the bowl at their own home，Why should you be a daughter -in -law to brush the bowl，Can you do that，I also came from my daughter -in -law。

I turned out to think how much I love my son，I can’t get the love for the daughter -in -law to give her son，Is this reason? In this world，At least she gave my son happy，I want to give her the house。I fight with my lover for my daughter Bet365 lotto review -in -law，He said that one day she will ignore you，Not here，Now verified，What can I say。

When my son is gone，Daughter -in -law has just been pregnant for 50 days。I kneel there for my relatives，Said that she must let her give birth to this child，They agreed。Daughter -in -law really wants this child，Can I lose their mothers，I will die in the future，Everything is this grandson。

I think, at the time they promised me, it should be sincere.

In fact, do you want this child，I also fight for myself，Now talk about eugenics，Only 50 days，She has no husband，Crying and crying with children，It must have an impact on the child。Wait until birth，It is also very unfair to the child，No father。Single -parent children，It is difficult to talk about objects now，People are unwilling to have a single parent，I feel that the temper will be strange for the main purpose。If you are not educating well，He will condemn you in turn，Say in order to satisfy your passage，You call me to this world，No fatherly love。Come again，This pair of daughter -in -law is not fair，She always wants to remarry，People have a child at a glance，And the elderly use superstition to speak，Kefe。

Before the son spirit，Keep so many people，I said to my son，Mom depends on you all my life，This time I am a master，This child doesn’t want it。

People say，One day your daughter -in -law will be grateful for you。Do you really wait for you that day?

The son was buried in less than 3 days，Daughter -in -law went to do the child，Less than a year，Talk about the new object。

April 28 this year，The third anniversary of her marriage with her son。My son qq，There is always a expression of daughter -in -law，No sentence。10 -year feelings，How about。

Daughter -in -law's mother said，You two are the same pain，You lose your son and lose your grandson，She lost her husband and lost her child。Can this the same，You are your own。

In the past, their house was not hung up，I only know this notary this time，One month of the son's death，Under such a painful mood，She quickly moved her account in。I enter her space，The phase of her and her son in the Shanghai World Expo，The diary she wrote after the son leaves，& ldquo; Dear husband & rdquo;，All delete。How sad I have seen。

My son gave me 500 yuan per month，Daughter -in -law said after the accident，& ldquo; Mom，I will give you living expenses in the future，Also like before，Monthly 500，How do he do what I do。& rdquo; Later, I didn’t have it at all。

Online sisters ask，Do your daughter -in -law give you a text message，I said occasionally to send it。People say oh，Your daughter -in -law is really good。I can only deceive myself。

I know a girl online，Like my daughter -in -law，My husband is gone。She miss him all day，Write bet365 live casino games an article on the Internet，Later, add me as a friend，Let's talk about it all the time。From the beginning to death，So far calm and quiet，Not much time in total。Say & ldquo; Time can heal & rdquo;，That refers to love。

There is a mother in Shanghai in our group，Saying that daughter -in -law is particularly good，Always see her，I just think I want to be able to spread this kind of daughter -in -law。Later party gatherings，Others tell me，Don't listen to her，Then use the money to change it，Daughter -in -law went to her to give money，Tyrium of 10,000，It will be delicious and delicious when you are here，You are here to buy me two boxes of snacks，You go back, I give you far from the two boxes of snacks。They all persuade me，It's over when it's over，She is not your。

My brother understands me，Say you want to daughter -in -law，Just go to see her。If she gave birth to a child at the beginning，Even if I don’t see me，I can also see the child。I send money to the child，It is always impossible for her to refuse me。But I can't go now。

We have a mother，The son is still in 5 days to register and get married，Suddenly an accident is gone。She just wants，What if the daughter -in -law has children? So staying with the daughter -in -law for 3 months，I want to keep it if I have a child and die。She calls her daughter -in -law every day and lives after work，I didn’t see it after 3 months，Boom away again。

Do n’t believe it，What is true，Just mother and child are true。

Some women are particularly ignorant，Ask my man if my mother and I fall into the river, who do you save。Actually, there is only one woman in a man's heart，is his mother。

　　Fear

In fact, when the son is one and a half years old，Zhang Yurong once conceived again。There is no second way to choose from，She sneaked to find the hospital for abortion。

That is a pair of twins。My son has changed from the eldest son to the only child，Then become a widow。

Zhang Yurong is 53 years old this year，She summarized her life in three years: 11 years old without dad，42 -year -old no mother，51 -year -old no son。

For her personally，The rest of the days are not expected to speak at all。I want to say yes，It's just pure fear。

& ldquo; It's really gone。How can there be a life? & rdquo; she said，& ldquo;，Isn't it painful? & rdquo;

Only when you talk about your son’s childhood，Zhang Yurong's thoughts will get a moment of relaxation。It is completely removed from reality，She finally doesn't look so sad。About the growth of your child，Mother's memory will never be invincible。

Story slowly tells，Songs slowly play。My son has downloaded a song "Hong Yan"，Mongolian Song，She opens it with a computer，Put on the headset，Follow the chorus。

& ldquo; Tian Cangxian，，My heart is the northern hometown。& rdquo;

In the son's bedroom，Her singing voice is accompanied bet365 Play online games by tears，Wild cavity go board，Stabbing the lungs and intestines。

The nephew's daughter -in -law is going to have children，I waited with their house in the hospital，I heard that there was a boy，​​My sister -in -law and her home will embrace together。What can I do，I had to walk out of the hospital quietly，Put the phone with a mobile phone，Crying by a person by the Haihe River。

I have a son photo in my mobile phone，Sometimes walking on the road，I really miss my son，I just open his photo，Paste your face with a mobile phone，I feel。On the day he was buried，I put the newly bought Apple mobile phone in the cemetery。Now take the bus，I will still send him a text message: Son，Mom really miss you。

Xunzi found that I am not at the hospital，Run out and find me along the road。The nephew is also anxious，Send me a text message，Say his son is my grandson。

Is that the case? That family is the children and grandchildren，This family is thirty years old and I am alone to see the child，Can it be the same?

When my son was adolescent，Press my hair on both sides if it's okay，Want to leave a print，Make a split。When he looks like a traitor，I am particularly angry。His trick at school，The teacher please parents，From the first grade to the sixth grade, I have never left the back，Tell the teacher all day and tell the teacher that you are affected。I hit him when I go home，I'm really sorry for children now。But no matter how I play，He can't do without me，One mother。

When I was a kid, I rode a bicycle and carried him on kindergarten，He keeps stabbing me in the back，Say & ldquo; Mom，Waiting for me to grow up, I want to go to college & rdquo;，I said & ldquo; Um & rdquo;。He said，& ldquo; I ’m Dr. & rdquo;，I just & ldquo; Um & rdquo;。He said，& ldquo; I buy you a big motorcycle & rdquo;，I said & ldquo;，line & rdquo;。Encountered snowy days，Let's take a bus。He is still talking，& ldquo; Mom，Waiting for me to grow up，I buy you the largest and largest wreath。& rdquo; Everyone on the car，Say that this kid doesn’t know how to please her mother。He thinks the biggest wreath is the most filial piety。

What about now，I really want to buy me a wreath for that day。

I am particularly sad when my mother leaves，But since the son left，I haven't swept my mother for two years。I think she should not have me，Why do you do?

My parents are gone，There are 10,000 reasons for children to explain to themselves，Destiny of birth and illness，Normal，No way。You can always get rid of，Continue to go forward，Because you are mentally prepared。Can I have to go away from you one day?

I was most afraid of death in the past，But now I get up every morning and tears，Why did I open my eyes again，How good to sleep in the past。I never thought about how I would die in the future，It is impossible to smell in the house anyway。It's terrible now，No one bet365 Play online games in the dead house knows。

Starting from the day of my son，I think life is very tired and tired。I can’t see the child when I think of the death，I am particularly scared。I am waiting in the house every day，Boil，Boil to natural death，How difficult。

Which life can be boiled，I am 53 years old，When I am 63 years old，The child in my mind still looks like，I want to see what he has changed in the past two years。

A few of us went to karaoke a few days ago，Because a sister said，Let's change a living method。Four people arrived in the box，Singing the song of Xiao Shenyang: & ldquo; I am beautiful and beautiful，I'm drunk and drunk。& rdquo; Crying，howling while。How do you say how to change the living method，Can you sing there like normal people?

Let's go to Jixian together to play，I have also been to Yingkou's catfish circle，On the mountain，Everyone calls their children's name，We are all shouting wherever we go。

This feeling can not come out by this feeling，Poor people are bitter and worried，At least no money，It is different from this pain。I am not happy how much you give me。We go to Beijing to find the National Family Planning Commission this time，A few people come back and say，What is useful，It is the family planning committee to pay you，Are you still crying? Everything has been solved for you，Build a special nursing home for you，Remove you 500,000，Real，You are still at the original point，You can never get out。

(The request of the interview, Zhang Yurong is a pseudonym)