Cai Bo: Memory takes me to you
May 17, 2019 08:25 Source: "China Social Sciences" Journal of Social Sciences, May 17, 2019, Issue 1694, author: Cai Bo

Last summer,It is the day when the hot is tortured in the north,Open the WeChat group of the university class,A bad news refers to eyes: July 26,Classmate Lu Shousheng unfortunately let go of people。The next column is the comments of the squad leader "Shou Sheng's head is not good",In his heart,Not only the opening whistle at the party in previous years- "The most proud of the proud is,My classmates have not fallen behind " -must change it,There is also some ominous hunch that comes。

Actually,Lu Shousheng’s death is in everyone's expectations。Because I learned through his lover's message,His "New Year's Day and the Spring Festival have been spent in the hospital in recent years",Cerebral thrombosis and diabetes complications are worsewhelmed by the snow.。Over the past many years,The disease has always tortured him like a demon attachment,Diabetes complications caused his vision to decrease sharply,Parenting reading, he was forced to bid farewell to books like his loved ones; then it was the risk of leg amputation,This was born at the foot of the waves、Men who advocate physical and mental exercise are becoming more slow and difficult,In the last few years, it is completely dependent on hemodialysis to maintain life,Even passing by with death。Finally on July 26th,He has never survived the level of death。I wrote a poem to mourn him: "You are gone/in this cool summer/so dull atmosphere/so hot wind"。

But,No one believes that bet365 best casino games he will go so hurriedly,Who can believe that such a strong life in memory will disappear instantly? Maybe in terms of rationality,Death is an unavoidable destination,End of the life of an individual is an ordinary thing,But there is something to deal with a life that is in my life、Friends who are fused,His death may not be in my emotional world to set off waves。Sandy's death is not in a storm for a while。

Shengsheng is one of the best students in my college time,Not only listening to the same classroom,Life in the same bedroom,Family background similar、Age age, etc.,Mainly, we both have the same interest and hobbies,I love literature。Two "free" Wenqing outside the professional,Use the main energy to read novels and poems,Also engaged in small creation from time to time。From then on,We have a common topic that is difficult for other students to intervene between us。

He is the most old -age person I have seen。His reading volume can be described as amazing,Not only reading the general literary book,Read historical category、Political books,The Biography and Memoirs of Great Man are his favorite。He is a book idiot,Even a book will be held in a book,This is the class "common sense" that everyone knows.。

In the communication of the years just graduated,,He will not forget to talk about his book。Daqing,He told me his book planning,To establish your own library in a few years,That is one of his desire to realize。Say in the letter,He is in a state of economic constraints from time to time,In addition to the necessary cold -proof supplies for setting up,Maintain the minimum daily diet,The largest bet365 Play online games overhead is to buy a book,Liabilities in some months。

A few years a few years,In a short call,He mentioned his book again,But this time we have a little sad tone,Because of the illness, he took his normal vision,And he has said goodbye to those collected books in his early years,You can only use your ears to "read" sound books。He is very satisfied。On the phone,He has always been optimistic.,Let me have a book to listen! Hearing this,I can't help crying on the other side of the phone。

He is still a friend of my classmates who can tell the story the most。He talks about his family history like a few family treasures,The emotional relationship between the generations of generations of people is tangled,It was unveiled by him layer by layer,Blood pulse,Tears with tenderness,Stranging scene like Laoton,There are Sphinx's mystery predictions,His talked about,Show the talent of a person who is good at telling stories。In the difficult time at the beginning of graduation,,He tells me,In a state of lonely, he wrote his own memoirs,Looking back at myself for more than ten years (from elementary school to college), I have a tearful student when I have a tearful student,Especially unforgettable college years。

He left the world prematurely,Leave that life narrative completely。Compared with him,Regardless of or read or write or talk,I am all dwarfed。If he is an enviable magic triangle,Both talent endowment,Energetic,There is also a dedication,Then all my,Just the latter item,A poor straight line。

Now,I have to mention this weak pen,Recalling his little life。Let the memory guide me to him,Although his life is as bet365 Play online games ordinary or even small as other lives,It is also the same at the end,But for my ordinary individual,His life story is particularly attractive to me。In the more than two months after he has played with the world,My mood is always heavy,I always want to connect that intermittent memory,He who missed one side,Also hovering with me,It is a valuable classmate,For that common obsession with literature,Leave a little text。

Graduation of college,Limited due to quota,He did not return to the hometown of the seaside,Instead, it is Daqing, which is assigned to the snow and ice。He said later,The climate there is always excluding the child of his big waves,Just like a classmate laughed at him almost in the small river,He later explained,I swim with the strong buoyancy of the sea。He is indeed a big bubble in the water,But that is a sea water!

He said it was cold weather and high -salt diet that harmed his body,Of course,And he was thrown into a distant and strange place in a distant and strange place that year,Stay away from family and friends,Stay away from warm monsoon、Aquarius、A pleasant waves。孑 一,Nothing,Start from scratch,This is the cost of paying a certain physical and mental,He helplessly bear,It also gradually erodes myself ...

In a letter,His most often mentioned love and marriage。His concept of love and conservative,In his opinion,I would rather stay with my lover and talk about the earth,I will not go together in the streets or parks。Although there are all kinds of interference,He still insists on finding a girl with the same education as a life companion,He Bet365 lotto review will never retreat and concession at this point。The road of love is full of bumps。Those unsuccessful blind dates accounted for so much energy and time,I can't help but make him feel frustrated。

and even if his situation is not smooth,He still strives to urge me to fall in love,I hope I will find the unique "strength and warmth" between the husband and wife as soon as possible。As he listed in a letter: How is your current physical condition? Do you have any achievements in literature?,It has always been a letter to his letter。There is such a greeting me、Care about my friends,I feel very warm。

Maybe it is a good thing to grind,When he almost lost patience,Finally encountered its own "good fate",A girl who graduated from the Chinese department with him with a knot in connection with him,Two lonely young people came together,Start their dependence on marriage life,It can be described as "loneliness relies on loneliness"。Both of them live in a foreign country,No relatives and friends around you,Facing the strange world that must be worked by yourself。More than thirty years,When he was sick,,It is his wife supporting his weak body to help him staggers,Enter the hospital,Enter the dialysis room,Enter the ward,Sit with him day and night。Although there is no hope of such a long time with me,But the days when you stay together, after all, there are really existence,There was such a wonderful singing sound in that passing river ...

He is the first person to give me a poem。My 20th birthday,He wrote an old body poem,Give me a gift,I kept it in the plastic seal of a bookmark,When you see the notebook, you will read it out,It bet365 Play online games seems that there is always an invisible force that allows me to draw that half -page draft paper,Seeing Jian Rujin is the unique mood at that moment。It is the first "portrait" in my college years after all,​​My original text contour and figure appeared in the middle。

The text he left to me also includes a dozen books,Write in the five years when I graduated from college,Write with light green manuscript paper,Yiyi's text is in an orderly manner to fill the small square。It is extremely heavy in my eyes,So far I still collect as precious objects,I did not abandon it again and again。Faith Ru people,His letter just shows him the person,His ancient road hot sausage,His interesting witty,His dare to laugh and scold,Sometimes a serious teacher,Sometimes like a naughty red。I especially like those texts that he describes the scene of personal life,Always so unique,Fresh Nature,lifelike,A straightforward man's image of a straight man's image crystal is transparent on the paper。

When the memory guides me to the footsteps to him -Lu Shousheng,My classmate friends,I will always think of many old age,One piece,A pile,phase with,Folding,a little clear,a little vague,The hazy person is like a moonlight,Those who are clear like sunlight,Zharazing in my old years。I never know what the impact they have on me,But I faintly feel that the impact is always existing,Like the rain and moisturizing objects。I thank God Cang for giving me this friend,Although only four years of classmates,Five years of communication,I haven't made a side of the thirty years,And now he lost bet365 live casino games on another dark long road。

When the memory guides me to go towards him,I will see the road that has come under my feet,The warm friendship is an unwilling street light ...

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